Afraid…by Louisa Carol Good ****August 2006 Poetry Contest Winner****

Posted on October 13, 2008 by admin

I have this great fear
Afraid to love‚ Afraid to cry
Afraid to love‚ Afraid I’ll die
Of this great pain inside

I am so afraid to love
Can’t comprehend how great His is
I’m scared of caring to much
And afraid that inside I’ll die
If I fall for a lie

The only time I feel whole
Is when I’m talking to Him
But the strange thing is
I only go on occasional whims
Life gets dim‚ until I get close to Him

I’m filled with pain‚ afraid to cry
I’m filled with wonder‚ but afraid to ask why
Afraid to care in case I have to say goodbye
And that when I do I’ll die

I’m afraid to open up wide
And let people inside
I’m afraid of being lied to
And being caught up in a stupid feud
This fear can’t be put on a shelf
So I put walls around myself

To stay protected
I didn’t want the pain of being rejected
All I wanted was to be respected
I was afraid of failing You
Seems there’s nothing I can do
To fit Your big shoes
But pray‚ follow‚ and stay close to You

I know the solution is it put it all into Your hands
So that’s exactly what I’ll do
Please take my fear away
And by Your side I’ll stay
And now I’m no longer afraid.

For I know the thoughts that I think toward you‚ saith the LORD‚ thoughts of peace‚ and not of evil‚ to give you an expected end. Jeremiah 29:11