Clinging to hope … by Rebekah Marshall

Posted on October 13, 2008 by admin

Clarity of vision
Catching a glimpse
Of my mangled heart
I’m in a tangled mess
Wearing a mask
To hide away the truth

Yet I’m
Clinging to the hope
That you
Are really here
Still beside me
Still leading me through

I’m struck
By the look in your eyes

You’ve always been there

You‚ never forsaking
While I
Wander
Down destructive paths

Talking myself out of believing
Preferring instead
To condemn myself
It seems easier

These lies
I believe them
And they destroy me
Yet I find them hard to ignore
They’ve become a master

I cannot serve
Two masters
Yet I’m trying
I see it now

Why do I
Stick with I know is wrong
When all I want
All I really want
Is You

I’ve been brainwashed
Until I only see the lie
Hiding behind it
In fear of
Being found out
I’m not all I should be
And I desire
So much more

Behind the mask
You find the lie
Behind the lie
You find the girl

Just a little girl
Crying really
Wanting out
Craving
What only One can give

One master
Who will be?
Seems simple
An easy choice
One hand holds death
The other
Life

Yet I’ve lived
In the wrong hand
Not always
But long enough
Long enough to see
It’s not as simple as all that

There’s something more to this
Something that binds
Against my will
My heart’s desire is for Him
Yet my mind
It takes me away
When I look in the mirror