Until one time I met my love one. He is a Christian for a long time and he had preserved himself. He is full time in ministry and never had a relationship in the past. We’ve been in love and I started to give my heart wholly after Jesus. Despite of my wicked relationships in the past I was able to love him and trust him because God made my heart whole again but as time goes by we started to know each other intimately. We became very open to each other and knowing that He loves me so much I begun to be open to him in telling stories about my past relationships w/c he wants me to tell him detail by detail. Since then we both struggle; He struggled big time because it became hard for him to accept how cheap I was before, he started to insult me and have that condemning spirit. I’ve been struggling so much for a long time because I love him and I can’t blame him because it’s my mistake but then it causes me so much pain and the confidence that I had before started to extinguished, I felt condemened and every time I see girls who looks beautiful and fresh I felt insecure. I felt dirty and cheap just like how he used to tell me. But then I kept on hoping that God would wash his mind and believe to Gods amazing power that it was true, and I’m fully transformed. It took us a very long period of time, morethan a year to get over my past. And sometimes he would brought it up in consecutive days. Bec. He said it was so hard to accept that he preserved himself for me and then when we get married he will just get left overs from me. He said he don’t deserve it but because he love me he was trying so hard to believe it even if in the natural it’s illogical. It’s just so hard for him because it is his first time to have a relationship and in our devotions God was just leading us to love each other even it became so hard for both of us. Because I got so upset already and wanted to quit because I got real tired from hearing a lot of condemnation and etc. but since God is just leading us to love each other we became obedient to Gods word believing that God knows what’s best for us even if sometimes we think it’s not the best.

But we both believed that God causes all things to work together and he put us together to sharpen each other and to love trully not based on emotions or physical but by the truth of Gods word.

And honestly until now were still pushing forward knowing that God instored a lot of things for us. We’re team and partners in ministry and evrytime we do a lot more for God the devil came hitting us, bringing the past through a lot of ways knowing that we struggle to much when it came about the past, he attacks us so bad everytime we’re being together and doing Gods will. We’re believing that God put us together because we will make a great impact in our generation including our testimonies! Yes even many times I want to quit God is sending someone or somebody to remind me that I am a new creation and I’ve been washed. Our relationship helped us to be closer to God and to be mature spiritually.

Only God can turn a mess into a message, Test into testimony, trial into triumph!

Please keep us in your prayer. Our relationship to be strong so us we’ll be able to do Godswill. (It was a God written love story) Though in the beginning it does’t make sense w know that God has a great plan!. So keep us in your prayers.

God bless!